thank you for your heartfelt sharing!
First, I want to confirm that this mirrored in your energy! I am so happy that you framed your experience in this session as you describe! Yes! The difference between just 'being caught' in our distractions, or choices that "clash between practicality and personal aspirations" and directly feeling them, is HUGE Sree! It tells you that your energy system (and all the training) is beginning to show you this clash in real-time.
At first, this can frustrate us even more - here, you need to be careful not to judge yourself based on an imaginary 'ideal or perfect', but with the knowing and trust that you are working on it (non-judgment/self-forgiveness for not being able to see this before). I really want you to see this as progress!
On the deeper, the aspect that stuck out the most as 'new' in your energy field was the ONENESS (experience of connectedness and feeling the presence of your higher/more connected self). This was an even bigger change (all compared to previous sessions), as it showed that your energy is now spontaneously (without you willing it) aligning itself to something greater - INNER HIGHER POWER - as I typically call it.
The tears are another way-shower for you, Sree...they come with the relief that only YOU decide how you want your life to be. It teaches us to let go (with our heart - not just mind) that what others think of us or how they see us is not in our control and really up to their perception of reality.
Thank you for sharing!
Thanks so much for this session, Jona and co-facilitators!
The session started with tears for me, felt like a reminder of the emptiness after losing something or actually letting go of something.
There were spells of mind-heart and heart-emotions connection for me too I think. During one of these spells I had a brief visual of sands shifting and could hear the associated winds. There were also spells of grounding for me as reported.
As reported by others, I had some work-related external distractions as well during the session. So, spent some of the time, just trying to hold myself in place and not give up my space.
I think I entered this session with a magnified sense of that schism between internal and external world. While witnessing this schism I feel pain about invariably making choices that go against personal fulfillment. It's like a clash between practicality and personal aspirations. Also seems like people in my life can see this and getting frustrated by it. Off late, I've been trying to work on self-forgiveness and acceptance about the course of this journey and being okay with however it gets perceived by others.
Thanks again! I agree with others, on the session being a good reminder of continually practicing to connect with true self. Please let me know if you have any session readings for me.