This transmission started out very beautiful although a bit of anxiety was felt in the morning a few hours before the session started.
There was visual of a beautiful golden white grotto/cave- like space and a connection to Gaia and our beautiful earthly existence within the Mother was felt.
There was a beautiful feminine figure on the left of a huge crystal
She had the palm of her hand on the crystal and light was flooding in
The masculine side seemed to be missing or not integrated with the structure.
A geometric golden pattern was seen but it seemed to be stretched out in one area (maybe the road pathway for our future self). There seemed to be a golden grid like a road from here but the geometry felt unfinished, like there was a bit of a gap to be filled in to make the structure strong and complete.
Maybe this was about integrating the Masculine with the Feminine, loving and accepting and all parts of ourselves - as there was some dark spikey circles that showed up and it felt like they were not accepted to allow deeper meaning or integration into the complete picture of tiny aspects that build the blockages, keeping us restricted into patterns of thoughts and behaviours. For me this felt a lot like inner child aspects that lead to anger and frustration and even resentment and some retaliation.
Feeling into softness and nurturing of the feminine, the beauty within the cave vision and then feeling the strength and courage of the masculine to face the unknown.
There was a feeling of dealing with the significance's of desires, wishes, and impulses as well as trying to balance the ability of freely giving and receiving without the restriction imposed by inner judgments and fears- also in regards to withholding love.
There was a brief moment to recognize what it feels like to let go of all the mind chatter and just drop into peace and serenity for a moment, and feel into trusting that all the solutions are always becoming available- as soon as we allow ourselves to be open to new possibilities…Trusting to let go and feel into the possibility that things are not always the way they seem...and holding onto rigid views and judgements of self and others is what maintains the bondage to those aspects and beliefs - to remain tightly in focus (our rigidity) and a reason why the same feelings keep arising.
Relinquishing control in the moment allowed the feeling into the ‘choice’ of the ‘now’ moment …about feeling into allowing a space or gap for something else to arise…choosing to stop following the same thought patterns when they turn up…feeling into not judging self or another, or a situation in the moment.
Feeling into the Future Self allowed this way of feeling into a new direction…like understanding the past ways of being as 'interesting' (teehee!) and to Observe without our 'usual' judgement…and to feel into the Future Self (the wholeness of who we are) and bringing that part of us back here and now, and now living life forward from this awareness of what it feels like. What fun to live 'moments' remembering this.
Thank you Jona, Roger and All for holding this beautiful space.